This is one of the most horrendously difficult decisions I've ever had to make, but I think it's inevitable, and a long time in the making. Too long, and I've let myself (and you) down by not making it sooner. It's not hard to figure out exactly what said decision is - I have to say goodbye.

Fuck, I'm crying. Thought I might, wasn't sure. Every single person I've ever even had the slightest brush of contact with on here means the world to me. You've helped me through all sorts of shit and there are many who I'll never forget... too scared to name names in case I (ironically) forget somebody - seems like something I'd do, right? =P

I've taken care of the practical things - deleted all my posts (having saved some of the most important ones (and all the comments! I've screencapped everything)) and changed my profile. Can't bear to delete the blog completely, though - and certainly not without warning, just in case anybody would be silly enough to worry about me =P

I don't know what I'm going to do next. I'm still very much eating-disordered (binge eating at the minute, although I had a serious purging session earlier today for the first time in a while) and I don't know if I want to do the "recovery" thing, but I do know that I don't feel like this is the place for me to be anymore. I'll probably still pop on and read your blogs, see what you've been up to (how could I possibly not?) but the chances of me blogging again are, currently, very slim - as are the chances of commenting, seeing as I'm making a conscious decision to try and distance myself from the "pro ana" blogger... "scene", for lack of a less ridiculously inept word.

That being said, because I don't know what I'll do next, at some point, possibly... I might come back? I don't know. But I'm leaving the possibility open for myself. I don't expect anybody to hang around for me but be warned - if I do ever feel the need to start Bite Me up again, I'll come looking for you =P My stalking skillz are 1337. Ish.

If anybody wants to keep in contact - and please, do! - I'll check the comments on this post for a while and I'll still check bitemebabyx@yahoo.co.uk regularly, just in case. Send me your email address or facebook and I'll add you on MSN or, indeed, facebook (something I've avoided so far) because I don't want to hide any more. If you're unsure, I've turned on comment moderation, so if you don't want to email me I can drop you a line instead. Of course, only if you want to, because I know there are a few people I've never really spoken to beyond a brief hello, and some even less than that.

I have so many regrets about this. I regret not commenting more, I regret not getting to know you, I regret not being more honest (I never lied, though...) and I desperately, desperately regret having to leave. I will never, ever regret meeting any of you, though. I'm not sure whether it's because of or in spite of loving you people so much, but that's why I'm leaving my wee contact details behind, at least...

I guess it's a bit inappropriate to say "goodbye", so... au revoir. <3